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I am a rebel. I hate being told what to do or how to behave. I don’t want someone to correct me or tell me how I should do things. But lately, I have felt like I am fighting a system that isn’t fighting back. Why does it matter if someone questions the things I say? Why should it bother me if someone gives me advice? It shouldn’t! While I know that I have to take others’ opinions of me with a grain of salt, God has placed people in my life for a reason.
Is this need to rebel always a bad thing? I can think of a few times in my life when I should have been a little more rebellious. I conformed for so long with what I thought my life should be. I didn’t really question that expectation. If I had questioned it, bucked that system, I would have avoided a LOT of heartache for myself, for others, and for God.
I recently went to a wedding for an friend from college. I got to see this group of fantastic, really fun girls that I had lived with for 3 years. We started swapping old stories and laughing at some of those funny dorm moments. Then it hit me, the girl they remembered isn’t me. I am not the same. I used to be a rebel against everything my parents had taught me to love. Now, I am in rebellion to the lies that I lived under then. I used to do everything I could to PROVE that I was not a pastor’s daughter. Now, I am serving and loving MY God and finding myself led to go into ministry myself. I guess the difference is… I am a rebel with a cause now.
